Back at it

Im three days into my recovery plan and I can say, its all coming back to me now. I love doing what I do and that is good enough reason to keep doin’ it! I made a mistake in January by biting a bit too much more off than I could really chew. Recovery is the holy grail for any athlete and thus, I am more mindful of the need for sleep or being very selective in how I spend my time. Some friends understand that most nights I am drooling by 8:45 pm, some dont, either way, the ones that stick around are the only ones worth having anyway.

I went on a long run on Sunday with much apprehension. I was fast asleep by 8:30 the previous night and up by 4:30am. There were so many voices of doubt in my head. It was almost as if it was my first EVER long-run.. Somehow, I feel this way even after having run 84.4km in one go, last August. I worry that I will forget how to run if I am seperated from my shoes for more than a few days. I started out in the pitch dark and as light slowly emerged, in an hour’s time, so did my spirits. I considered cheating on my long run, several times but, I was very glad I did not give in. I proceeded to spend the rest of the day with one of my best friends and his amazing wife. There was more temptation to “chill” at lunch but, thankfully, I did not give in. I went on a long swim, once again te impulst to cut it short being very very strong.. I took a little break in the middle, watched some kids play, helped a kid with his stroke and kept swimming.

Sometimes, just ocassionaly that is, it is OK to step back to actually make progress. While its hard to admit that one makes mistakes, that is the very nature of life. Besides, how will we know our limits if we dont test them? Time and again and again?

Ive decided to live up to the promises I have made to myself in order to be a better person for everyone else to engage with. If I am not happy, there is no way Id be spreading any joy around, for starters.

Its 9:40pm tonight, I am on a strict “no late nights” embargo. So, Im off to read my book and fall asleep.